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Days of Grease and how they apply today..... null                                                                         Recently I've been thinking of an old, ethinyl estradiol dear friend. Because of a series of events which continue to present themselves in my life, ethinyl estradiol I've been thinking about "Sandy". Actually her name is not Sandy, ethinyl estradiol but that's the part she played in our production of "Grease".  I played the part of one of the Pink Ladies, ethinyl estradiol  Jan. The summer of 1985 was a memorable one. My father had passed away that April, ethinyl estradiol and in many ways that summer was one of sadness and grieving, ethinyl estradiol along with conversely some wonderful memories of the opportunity of being cast in some great productions. Summer stock as with any small community can be an interesting one. Like any small community, ethinyl estradiol and one that has proven to be competitive as well as caring, ethinyl estradiol there are a variety of personalities and perspectives, ethinyl estradiol and of course, ethinyl estradiol there are the politics. However, ethinyl estradiol despite any personality problems, ethinyl estradiol fatigue, ethinyl estradiol hangovers, ethinyl estradiol deadlines, ethinyl estradiol the shows were up and running and done so in a very professional manner. As with any community, ethinyl estradiol especially one where competition resides, ethinyl estradiol interesting dynamics and power plays would (and will) inevitably occur. We, ethinyl estradiol as a group of young students performing in Summerstock theatre, ethinyl estradiol  were not immune to such situations. It doesn't lose irony that the situation I write about was prompted by the girl playing Rizzo who began directly and indirectly fueling her hostility and aggression towards my friend who happened to be  playing the lead, ethinyl estradiol Sandy. The girl playing Rizzo could be said to have had many of the characteristics of Riz off the stage as well. A complex, ethinyl estradiol funny, ethinyl estradiol passionate, ethinyl estradiol sexy, ethinyl estradiol alpha female, ethinyl estradiol "Rizzo" was also known to be fiercely competitive and for whatever reasons, ethinyl estradiol which have remained inexplicable to me, ethinyl estradiol decided to engage in a sort of covert campaign against Sandy during the rehearsals and performances we played. Looking back I tend to think it was simply because she was immersing herself, ethinyl estradiol quite heavily, ethinyl estradiol into her role. However, ethinyl estradiol her tactics and choices created unnecessary problems and damage, ethinyl estradiol at least at the time. It created divisions and alliances between others as well. I remember feeling very powerless and conflicted at the time, ethinyl estradiol wondering how to respond, ethinyl estradiol how to defend her against all the whispering which I didn't even fully understand and/or was not privy to such conversations. I remember Sandy walking into our room after rehearsals, ethinyl estradiol silent and hurt, ethinyl estradiol but she never said anything. That was her style.   And I instinctively knew not to approach her or provide any "sympathy". Sandy was a person of enormous pride and self-awareness. She didn't need or have time for anyone's sympathy, ethinyl estradiol or for that matter, ethinyl estradiol anyone's petty gossip and insinuations. Ethinyl estradiol To sum it up, ethinyl estradiol Sandy was more mature and evolved than the majority of us. There were the nights during the production she would take long walks out in the corn fields. It's Iowa remember. I was always extremely relieved when she returned - the corn fields are a place where one can all too easily get lost. However, ethinyl estradiol Sandy always found her way through the corn fields and eventually through the situation that we would later laugh about, ethinyl estradiol but not without the realization of what individuals are capable of inflicting from whatever pain/perceptions they hold in their hearts. Today what I remember had little to do with the production of a show. Today I remember my friend Sandy who was a grown up, ethinyl estradiol even though she was only eighteen.   When she was the first of our friends to marry, ethinyl estradiol and the last one we expected to because of her independent nature, ethinyl estradiol I sang at her wedding.    I was honored. The past few days I've thought about calling her. I would like to channel the dignity and poise I continued to witness in that young girl who I saw as a mentor. While compassion and conviction often seem to be too huge to carry at times, ethinyl estradiol  qualities like temperance and reserve are necded especially when situations and individuals actions elude. Sandy had the ability I've seen in only a very rare few - to remain true to herself and her convictions and additionally detach from situations, ethinyl estradiol whispers, ethinyl estradiol innuendo that at that time at Okoboji were swirling and simmering. It seems my nature to understand situations is being broadsided by the reality there are situations that we simply shouldn't attempt to understand, ethinyl estradiol at least at the time they are present in our lives. My own "summerstock" experience has lasted a much longer time than a summer. Since moving to California, ethinyl estradiol finding a freedom and an independence has come with a cost. While it has been imperative for my own growth and maturity, ethinyl estradiol it has also placed me in positions with some family members and those in powerful places that I frankly would not have thought to ever adequately anticipate. I've learned many things. I'm learning the value of insight and the art of discernment. I've learned that people see what they see and additionally they say what they want to say. I am no different in that regard and as such am a student as is everyone else. However the importance is in the realization that we all are both students and teachers to each other. Some choose to realize that, ethinyl estradiol others may choose to exploit it. Its a choice we all make. Today I remember Sandy's poise, ethinyl estradiol self-respect and inner strength during what was a turbulent moment years ago. I've been reminded by friends recently that others will make choices by their own perceptions, ethinyl estradiol judgements, ethinyl estradiol and/or agenda.  I can choose how to respond, ethinyl estradiol or likewise, ethinyl estradiol not.