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As we go through the motions through the day, women's viagra where there was comfort there is now a nagging sense of fear and uncertainty.   Family, women's viagra community, women's viagra nation; each of these we are compelled to reassess.    In these past seven years, women's viagra since coming to California, women's viagra  the most significant challenge for me has been the deepening chasm dividing me from my family since I began speaking out against this Administration and their policies.   Perhaps what makes it more interesting for me is I have known George W. Women's viagra Bush and Laura personally and as family friends.    We shared time together some years back.   I liked them both.   It has been my familial connections to that world which have made my choices more challenging.   Some in my family have seen my outspokenness as an act of betrayal, women's viagra rather than a call to awaken friends and family to the illegal acts taking place in our name.    Today we barely speak.  

 

  The reality of their absence has enhanced the already flatfooted feeling I've experienced in speaking out against this Administration.     Like most families, women's viagra they were a large part of my growing up.     But that is where we are today.   I was the youngest of five children, women's viagra the only girl and after college, women's viagra found myself as the only Democrat.   My two oldest brothers have been involved in Republican/Washington politics for as long as I can remember.   I grew up in Dallas, women's viagra or more specifically 'the bubble', women's viagra better known as Highland Park.    You could call it a world apart.  Prior to and during college, women's viagra I considered myself a Republican, women's viagra ( wasn't everybody?) it wasn't until I graduated from college that my beliefs and perspectives began to shift and expand.   College, women's viagra while I didn't realize it at the time, women's viagra was a fertile ground for me to feel safe enough to explore and ask questions I would never have thought to have asked before.   It wasn't long after graduating and returning home, women's viagra that I began to question why I had returned. 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Oh wait, women's viagra there was the response from one sibling who essentially stated that I deserved what was happening to me. 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